You might get fired eventually if this continues. You do seem to suffer from extreme jealousy to the point where it disrupts your daily activities.
The only thing i can think of that is likely to help is estrogen possibly combined with bicalutamide. Maybe you could do an experiment trying that for a weak and see if it makes you more accepting and happy?
Most people would probably suggest therapy for you but i am pretty sure that wouldn't work.
Antipsychotics may also make you more manageable but that has horrible side effects like
shrinking your brain so it's not really a good idea.